Coming soon?
I’m scared, but isn’t everyone?
Hello.
I’m scared.
Scared to start writing, I mean.
When I started substack last year, like most I knew very little about the platform itself. I was told by a friend that it was this place where you could share your thoughts and ideas and knowledge with people who got it. In her eyes it gave her the voice she never had. And of course that was great. It was fantastic that this place existed. And it was brilliant that it had found all these people who needed it. Not to bring the big scary world into it but with the loneliness epidemic1 holding a concerning number of people today in a chokehold, it’s a real treat to be reminded that human connection is still up and fighting.
So obviously the concept of a site where everyone gets each other should appeal to me, why wouldn’t it?
Well, I really wish I could write that I immediately said yes. That I dashed to my computer and went to make an account right then, but I didn’t. I hesitated for a long time.
Because?
Because I was scared.
Maybe it was the publicity of it all ( Hell knows my parents kept me away from the world, but that’s a tangent for another day ). Maybe it was the possibility that no one would ‘get it’. But I think most of all, the reason I was so anxious to come on here in the first place was thanks to fearing someone could fully know and understand me after all.
As this low quality image accurately reflects, I can be very inconsistent with how I want to be perceived.
Even in real life, I don’t open up completely. I think few people really do. There are some things I tell my friends (Hi Binnie ‼️) that I would never dream of telling my family, and vice versa. So how, when I can’t even consistently ‘be real’ with my friends and family, could I even begin to talk into the noisy reactive commercial void which is social media?
Well, dare I say it, substack isn’t like other social media platforms.
WOAH WOAH OKAY GUYS PUT DOWN YOUR PITCHFORKS-
What I mean by that is, substack feels different to other platforms. And there are many reasons for that, but this ‘coming soon’ post is hardly getting to the point, so for your sake and mine I’ll skip to the part you were probably looking for when you clicked on this title.
I’m going to start posting on here.
Okay there, I said it. Now I have to do it, right?
Don’t ask me about a schedule, I’m already meant to be doing other things than write this, but I think I might finally put something on here other than the miscellaneous notes and comments I’ve held myself to so far.
I will most likely post some poetry, things about my current interest as well as some speculative bits and bobs on the things I find worth writing about in my life.
This is all early game, but I think the name for my publication is going to be ‘Starsy’s Bits and Bobs’
I know how much more British can I get?
Someone (*COUGH COUGH Beau Watson *) gave me that nickname recently and I’m taking it and running. No takesy backsies.
Thanks for reading this so called coming soon post, and who knows, maybe I’ll really do this thing.
Here I’ve linked a BRILLIANT article by Reem that covers this topic :D